➪ 中山 春樹 @normal_spring

@murata_ugetsu no... I honestly didn’t know anything about it until I recently found out... everything made sense though...

[ @murata_ugetsu ] don’t worry, he’s all yours now. don’t need to worry about me getting in the way ^^

can I take a year long nap-

@murata_ugetsu I’ve told him to stop... akihiko I mean after I found out about you two... and I’ve made it clear we’re not going to date. I’m sorry for the trouble I may have caused

@DrummingWhore_ At being grabbed he let out a loud sob, feeling himself completely break as his legs went weak. he never really ever shared about what had happened all those years ago during his second relationship with a man... but it still hurt him.

@DrummingWhore_ It went sour again. It was back to the night where everything went down and Haruki even struggled to look in Akihiko’s direction. He was upset. He thought that him and Akihiko were almost a thing... but the trust was gone again after what Yatake told him.

@DrummingWhore_ “This isn’t about that! This isn’t about what happened! This is about now!” He really didn’t want to talk about it, even if it did cause him to cry more from the thought of what he once went through.

@DrummingWhore_ “... you really don’t know me at all do you?!” from being told he didn’t know what it was like to be in a toxic relationship, he felt fire begin to rise in him. he wasn’t upset anymore, no, he was angry. “I have been in an abusive relationship! one a lot worse then this!”

@DrummingWhore_ “Then why do you always want to be with him...?” he asked quietly, trying to not stumble his words or anything as he began. “why do you always have this need to go back and forth?”

@DrummingWhore_ “Don’t... seriously don’t...” He mumbled, rubbing his eyes to try and get the tears to stop again. “I know you don’t love me... so please don’t try to make it like you do... please.”

@DrummingWhore_ “ /don’t/. loving someone with all your heart isn’t how you feel towards me... it’s how you feel towards ugetsu... just... stay with him... be happy with him” he gave a small nod, feeling his heart break from seeing Akihiko like that, but there was nothing he could do about it.

@DrummingWhore_ At hearing those words, he paused. He wanted to say something back... but by now he learnt it wasn’t really true. “Don’t lie to me... please don’t... I’ve realised by now it wasn’t love... it was never love... if it was... I wouldn’t have always been second.”

@DrummingWhore_ “Thank you” He mumbled, taking a few deep breaths to try and stop him crying, but he couldn’t. eventually he ducked out of Akihiko’s arms to begin walking away from him. from how much he hurt... his heart, eyes and head, he thought he might throw up or pass out

@DrummingWhore_ “No... you’re not coming back to me akihiko... I can’t do this anymore... I can’t be your second best... your rebound... it hurts too much everytime you do it.” He gave a small nod before moving his hands up to wipe his own tears away. “Please... just let me go.”

ooc. I wish there was a yatake that wasn’t myself

@DrummingWhore_ he looked up at him, feeling himself begin to tear up as he shook his head. “I... I can’t do this anymore... I can’t deal with you going back and forth between us... just stay with him, stop trying to put me in the middle.” he nodded, tears soon started to stream, he was hurt.

I really need to start dating again or just try to suppress...

@DrummingWhore_ ooc. at this point it’s possible

Another Christmas alone. Oh well

@DrummingWhore_ At being grabbed, the blonde looked up at the other, the frown darkening on his face. “Let go of me, Akihiko” he said, pulling his arm out of Akihiko’s grip. he was angry, he was upset. he let akihiko back in and trusted him for it to go back in his face again.